jams that even strawberries like ♡♡♡

(Found this as a saved draft from November of 2009. A lot of this still holds true and it’s unnerving how I still feel this way.)

Social networks, such as Facebook, and online communication, such as emails and instant messages, have been my way of keeping in touch with everyone I know. But recently, as much as I love to be completely updated with everyone’s lives…I’ve been wanting to disappear from the radar just so I can focus on other aspects of my life. I see my friends all the time anyway and if there was ever an urgency to reach me, I’m just a phone call and a text away. Today I had to delete a little over than 1,500 facebook email notifications all coming from just the past month. And prior to that, about 42 pages worth of notifications were deleted all from a span of one week! Not to mention that all these also go through my phone as well. It’s ridiculous how impacted and how connected my life has succumbed to social networking!

As amazing as it is to be connected to people miles, state, countries, and continents away, it’s a tremendous distraction to always constantly hear, see, and know what other people are doing, thinking, and feeling. And it’s a two way mirror where everyone can also hear, see, and know what I’m doing, thinking, and feeling. Going back to Facebook as an example, even though I deleted around 200 individuals in the last 6 months, I still have over 900 people who can peer into my page any time they want. It is now a decision how private I want my life to be and how much of it that I want people to see. And there’s always a possibility that one falls into the hazard of seeing the unwanted: anything and everything posted by people who aren’t in your life anymore, whether it be an individual who used to like you, a former friend, or that ex who made you completely miserable. The pull of social networking also happens to be the cause that pushes me away. The vast amount of time that I use to browse, read, and respond could be spent in a much wiser and progressive way (more on this later). Anyway, I don’t want to completely shut myself off of this fast paced, constantly shifting society and become a recluse but I’d love to have a little bit more privacy back. So for now, I’m going to shift my attention to other things I’ve neglected and be missing in action in cyberspace. Sorry to anyone who cares but like I said, I’m just a phone call away. :)

P.S. I’ll still try to put music up in this blog. It’s always nice to know people still take time to listen. :D